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I have a secretI have a secret,
One that's bottled up inside,
I have a secret,
That I really should confide.
Should I even tell you?
You're just some guy.
Should I even tell you?
It's easier to lie.
Sometimes I like to dream,
That there is nothing wrong
Sometimes I like to dream,
But I guess I'm not that strong.
I guess I'll share,
What harm could it do?
I guess I'll share,
It might be easier if you knew.
I just want to die.
There you go.
I just want to die.
Now you know.
TiredA question I get asked a lot is: “What's wrong?”
My friends, my family, school authorities, everyone and anyone.
I used to think nothing was wrong. But with that question being asked all the time, am I sure that I'm okay? The more I think about it, the more I come to the realization that something isn't right.
Am I not supposed to be tired after long nights?
Am I not supposed to be stressed out from school and sports?
Am I not supposed to wonder where my future lies?
Am I not supposed to ponder over the past?
Am I not supposed to get anxiety from simply talking to people?
Am I not supposed to get the feeling that no one like me?
Am I not supposed to think about what would happen if I were to just 'disappear'?
Am I not supposed to feel that I'm all alone in this world?
Am I not supposed to pretend that everything is okay?
If I'm not supposed to do all of those things, then what am I supposed to do?
And If I am supposed to do all of those things, then what is really wrong?
My MistakeI made the mistake of trusting you
One too many times
Thought you'd never lie again
But i still see all the signs
I made the mistake of giving you my heart
And you broke it in two
I'm laying here in pieces
And my eyes are crying too
I made the mistake of loving you
I wasted all my time
When i was there, you were with her
I missed you as if you were mine
I made the mistake of believing you
And listening to your plea
But why would you ever
Stay with a girl like me?
My mistake was how i felt
When i was with you
I wish i could turn back time
To when i never knew
Love and PainYou know love?
It's that weird, sinking feeling where you think you're going crazy
You know pain?
It's that awful, searing feeling where you want to die
Know what happens when those two are mixed together?
It's gonna be one heck of a ride if they do
But everyone has gone through the troubles plenty of times
Many have survived the pain and stood strong
You there, yes, you.
Stop crying and lift your chin up
Sweetie, you're perfect in my eyes
You're going to be fine because I'm here for you
He broke your heart? That's okay.
She stole him away from you? That's okay.
You can love me instead.
Don't lose the will to live just because of love and pain
Love is not easy to find nor easy to obtain
But once you grasp it, you'll be in a world of paradise
You'll be happy and you'll never frown
I promise you I will not let you down
But before you get started on this
Promise me you'll never do that again
A love story.[Part 1]
She adjusts her hair in the mirror, and runs down the stairs––
the love of her life is waiting nervously, running his fingers through his hair.
She stops at the last step, and can't hide her smile anymore––
his eyes widen as he sees her, and he looks down shyly to the floor.
She giggles to herself, and walks closer to where he stands––
He looks at her, takes a few steps and extends both of his hands.
She takes them softly in her own… and the feeling is suddenly mutual.
They need each other from that moment on…and it is inevitably crucial.
10 years later they lay asleep, holding hands over the sheets––
He wakes up gently smiling, grazes her feet as he watches her sleep.
He blows air on her face softly, and she lets out adorable sighs––
He lays on his side and caresses her face, until she opens up her eyes.
She whispers "hello" with a wink, as she begins to stretch out her arms––
Love Hurts“Love hurts”.
I never knew the meaning of those words.
How could something so beautiful be so curt?
Why do they say it flies away like a bird?
“Stop this nonsense”.
They never did quite understand or see.
Our love has no consequence
As I was meant for you and you for me.
“Don’t choose with your ego”.
I’m not doing this all for me or for you.
I just love his smile that always does glow,
And between us, things are never blue.
“He will break you”.
Please do not just assume that
What happened to you will happen to me too.
I would know if he was a threat.
“There is no such thing as fate”.
You say it with such conviction,
Are you so quick to hate?
You have never seen the darkness brighten
My LifeLiving my life
I feel so alone
All on my own
As I walk through the depressing rain
I hope to go numb
So I won’t feel the pain
Eating away at me
I feel like I’m nothing
And only wishing to be something
I hope for anyone to notice me
But it seems I’m not meant to be
Because everyone walks right through me
And all my hopes, and dreams, all my wishes to be something
All means nothing now
As I enter my world of hopelessness
My empty, lifeless dark room
That is filled with all my loneliness, pain, and sorrow
The place I call home
Where I stay
Through all my lifeless, empty days
The place I call hell
Look into my eyes and you can tell
See the pain, loneliness, and sorrow I feel
Live my life
You’ll think it’s unreal
I know my fate
To sink in despair
I’d be surprised
If one person cared
I only wanted one friend
That would stay with me
Till my journey’s end
To the one who holds my heart.I looked into your heart and found a mirror of mine;
the sacred scarlet muscle that so drives our lives.
That bloody pumping rhythm is so hard to define,
and does assault my mind like a thousand buzzing hives.
And yet without this confusion love has no spine,
'tis but a sordid wasteful thing which never survives.
In you I see something that does make stars align,
a power beyond time, keener than sharpest knives.
And it is through this Earth that we will ride
Without fair guidance or friendly hand
To guide us to that so surreptitious lonesome path.
I take the pain of this world in my stride,
and wonder solemnly if this was all planned
Or if our emblazoned love transcends all wrath.
the last poem to my firsti.
you always touched me carefully,
running your light fingers over my shaking hips
as if i were a fragile thing
(to be protected instead of loved)
but in the end
you broke me
you always said you didn't know how you felt about me
but the loneliness in your trailing fingertips
told me all i needed to hear.
how many "i love you"s have drowned
in the uncertainty behind your eyelids?
how many kisses have died
in the doubt i tasted on your tongue?
new years day i woke up in your bed
alone with a headache
and a house of cards in my mind.
you pushed it over the first time you breathed into my ear that morning
whispering you loved me
as if it were a secret
as if i were a secret
we were broken things together
crazy things together
driven insane and driving insane
desperate and deserted
but you can't build a relationship
out of mutual loneliness.
never give yourself to an artist
because you miss writing love poems.
but someday i'll miss you.
Why can’t you hear me?
Why won’t you answer me?
Why don’t you look at me?
Please see me…
I’m sick of being a ghost…
Of my words falling
Onto the cold hard earth
Of your ears.
No one hears the snow
All you do is feel it…
Can you feel me?
Feel my presence…
The hand I reach out for
To steady me…
Or for the shoulder
When I need to cry…
But no one feels a ghost…
Look at me…
Speak to me…
Laugh with me…
I’m an amazing person
You just wait and see
I’ll show you the world I see
I’ll show you how to smile and laugh again
I’ll show you the promise of love
Even though you have given it up
I’ll show you adventure
And watch adrenaline pump through our system
And watch these feelings of ours grow.
Even if I haven’t met you yet…
I know you are out there
You Destroyed MeI wish you understood,
that you were my friend
But you found so many ways,
to rip my heart into pieces..
You used to be there,
you always helped me stand tall.
But now I see that these were lies,
you never cared about me at all...
I thought of you as a friend,
but your just like everyone else.
Now just leave me alone in this world,
and watch me suffer into the night.
I lost so many people,
I am better off alone.
You were my friend,
but you destroyed the only thing that mattered.
You destroyed my trust,
you destroyed my life.
so leave me the hell alone,
and watch me suffer in this world alone..
Do you have a second?Can I tell you something?
Just listen for a second.
I think that you're amazing.
Not just you,
But who you really are.
What I see underneath.
Sure you can be mean sometimes.
But I've seen you be sweet.
I'm not blind.
And your looks are perfect
No I'm not saying you are the most beautiful
Or the most handsome person in the world.
I'm saying you are perfect.
Your eyes can hold a gaze for hours.
Your smile can draw anyone away from the world.
Your laugh can brighten up anyone's day.
And your personality can make anyone fall in love.
I wish I could tell you that in person
But this poem must suffice
Because where you are is a mystery
But who you are, isn't.
Hath No FearGiving yourself completely up to fear is kinda like falling in love: You can't pin point exactly when it started and by the time you realize that you are surrounded by that sensation it's already game over. Just like the image of the person you are in love with starts creeping out from every unexpected corner, fear never leaves your side when you give it a welcome stay. After a restless sleep, it starts beating anxiously in your heart the moment you wake up in the morning and commands all your thoughts and actions throughout the day. It is nothing short of a prison, except you are the only inmate and the warden never takes a break. Ever.
I do not exactly remember when I let fear occupy my being but I remember the exact moment when I realized I was ruled by it. It was late in the afternoon, everybody was out there 'getting busy living' and I had locked myself inside my bed half awake, not particularly finding any valid reason to get out of it. Then I was awakened from a nightmare by my
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